A New Life...

Well, it looks like our little family is going to be a little bit bigger in September. We are overjoyed! We continue to pray that the Lord will keep our newest addition safe and healthy while he or she forms and grows strong enough to face the outside world. This pregnancy has been easier and yet harder for me in many ways. The "morning sickness" seemed to be worse at night instead of all day. I actually only lost my stomach contents about, oh a dozen times now... As with my other pregnancies, I have been utterly exhausted (which is why there has been no activity on my blog). I have struggled to keep up with my 2 and 4 year olds, as their energy is endless. My biggest challenge? I have had much more time to fixate on this pregnancy than my past two since I am no longer working full time. I have discovered that for me to fixate on something is not a good thing. It seems my anxiety about the health of this pregnancy has been far more exacerbated than when I just didn't have time or when I was too sick to think about it... I am learning (sometimes the hard way) to have faith that our Lord is a loving Lord and that He is in control and will ensure the best (the hard part to swallow is that I know sometimes His best doesn't seem like the best for me at the time). My prideful, stubborn nature seems to flirt with me eluding that I am in control and can fix any situation. How wrong I am! How hard it is for me to say that! Needless to say, I have been incredibly blessed in my life and I have an amazing family. I will continue to work on trusting and believing God. I have mentioned before that I am experiencing an amazing Bible study by Beth Moore. I hope to verbalize more of what I am learning here soon. It has been difficult for me to keep up with the study over the last few months, but thankfully I can catch up when my energy returns fully.

I look forward to warmer weather, a bigger belly, renewed energy, and more blogging...